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Launch Delayed

by Turner Simkins ::

posted on CarePages June13, 2011 Major General Urquhart: Hancock. “I’ve got lunatics laughing at me from the woods. My original plan has been scuppered now that the jeeps haven’t arrived. My communications are completely broken down. Do you really believe any of that can be helped by a cup of tea?” Corporal Hancock: “Couldn’t hurt, […]

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Breathe, pray, smile

by Turner Simkins ::

My laptop’s power indicator is blinking red, so we are looking at a world-record short post. Suffice it to say that I was comforted by the glimmering mirrored pyramid this morning, reflecting the eastern sun into Brennan’s room on the transplant unit. He opened his beautiful blue eyes, stared at me for a second, smiled and extended his arms for a hug.

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Jumping the Gun

by Turner Simkins ::

“The man was on his knees, trying to retrieve each of his ugly words that were now scattered on the floor. But, of course, it was too late.” ~Dr. SunWolf

Well I guess I spoke too soon. Lords knows its not the first time. Given my predisposition for it, I pray its not the last.

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Dancing Softly

by Turner Simkins ::

“No one is as capable of gratitude as one who has emerged from the kingdom of night.”
Elie Wiesel

By 10:00 am this morning it was over ninety degrees outside. We crept out of bed. It had been a long night. Walking out into the full June sun, it felt early. For some reason, the vomits kicked in around 3am without warning and with much vigor.

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Love in the Rubble

by Turner Simkins ::

“It’s a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken. Perhaps they’re better left unsung.
I don’t know, don’t really care. Let there be songs to fill the air.” – Robert Hunter

“At this time I would like to ask you all if there are any milestones or special days of recognition that you may like to share with the congregation?” It is a question that Father Tim Fitzpatrick poses to the Sunday evening worshipers every week before the final prayer and recessional hymn at St. Patricks church in downtown Memphis.

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Amen!

by Turner Simkins ::

“The body of Christ is the body of God, the body of ultimate reality, the ground of all existence. We do not have to look anywhere else for it. It resides deep in our own being.” – Thich Nhat Hanh

“Rounding the bout” at Mud Island a few minutes ago, I could see very clearly that the water-marks on all of the trees was at least a foot higher than the current water level. Sometime between be picking the boys up from school yesterday and now, the devastating flood waters have begun to recede. … read more

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Don’t Fall Now

by Turner Simkins ::

“Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.”
C. S. Lewis

The last thing you want to go with one last hurdle in front of you is stumble and fall. A lot of pieces had to come together this week for Brennan’s surgery to get scheduled for tomorrow.

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Hope of a Crest

by Turner Simkins ::

posted on CarePages May 11, 2011 “Are you upset little friend? Have you been lying awake worrying? Well, don’t worry…I’m here. The flood waters will recede, the famine will end, the sun will shine tomorrow, and I will always be here to take care of you.” -Charlie Brown to Snoopy I’m not much of a […]

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Storm Stations

by Turner Simkins ::

posted on CarePages May 7, 2011 “We shall overcome We shall overcome We shall overcome some day Oh, deep in my heart I do believe We shall overcome some day” Charles Tindlay It was the week after Easter, tornadoes, evacuations and rising waters. A lot has happened, and is happening all around us. As this […]

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Monday Prayer

by Turner Simkins ::

“It is for us to pray not for tasks equal to our powers, but for powers equal to our tasks, to go forward with a great desire forever beating at the door of our hearts as we travel toward our distant goal.” – Helen Keller

This is not so much of an update as a request. Tara and I are waiting with Brennan in “B” Clinic this morning for his first bone marrow biopsy since he was declared to have obtained remission around two months ago. read more

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A Good Turn

by Turner Simkins ::

posted on CarePages, April 13, 2011 “Man is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue”. Eugene O’Neill Always expect the best, especially when the worst seems to be taking the upper hand. I was almost embarrassed last week, having posted a Carepage which, clearly demonstrating frustration with a partially derailed […]

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Long Road

by Turner Simkins ::

“Choose to think according to God’s word and not how you feel. Nobody is a failure unless they choose to stop trying. Life gets a lot sweeter and easier if we live with the attitude that says, “I will do my best today and I trust God will do the rest. Tomorrow I will begin again and I will never quit or give up.”. Joyce Meyer

Two weeks ago this Sunday I was walking through the Memphis Botanical Garden with our good friend Margie Lackie and Brennan. Possibly the most beautiful spring afternoon this year, and clearly one of the most joyful and buoyant days in many months. … read more

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Baby Steps

by Turner Simkins ::

“Sweet are the uses of adversity.”
William Shakespeare

Busy, I guess, is a matter of scale. Brennan’s life, compared to most kids, is pretty loose. School, only three hours a week; hardly any homework; no sports obligations; no social obligations; lots of legos & movies… just living. But busy he is, and busy are we holding his hand and lifting him up until such time that he is capable of living as a nine year old should.

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Let it Grow

by Turner Simkins ::

“Let it grow, let it grow, Let it blossom, let it flow. In the sun, the rain, the snow, Love is lovely, let it grow.” – Eric Clapton

The news of Brennan’s remission was accompanied with impressions of opportunity, distraction and perspective. Opportunity to breath. While still intently focused on a litany of unresolved medical issues (high blood pressure, kidney and liver functions, GVHD, etc.), the precipitous withdrawal of catastrophic disease as an immediate concern lifted the oppressive hand of fear and misgiving, our minds suddenly buoyed above water, gasping and relieved at the sight of blue sky.

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Terra Firma

by Turner Simkins ::

“Faith is an island in the setting sun, But proof is the bottom line for everyone.”
– Paul Simon

So, back to the business of beating leukemia. As elated and thankful as we were leaving ICU for Brennan’s old room (number #9, for you Beatles fans) our arrival was heralded with guarded fanfare.

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The Perfect Storm

by Turner Simkins ::

Posted Feb 13, 2011 11:47pm We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.
– Joseph Campbell Watching your son at the free throw line. Not much at stake other than Nat’s pride. His team is down 23 to 15 with […]

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Day +11: Walking by Faith

by Turner Simkins ::

Posted Feb 5, 2011 1:17am “We walk by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7 It is Friday morning. I am sitting in the ICU with Brennan and Martha listening to Steve Baughman’s rendition of It is Well with My Soul. Steve arranged this music on the guitar just for Brennan. Today, Steve’s beautiful guitar […]

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Peace and Confidence

by Turner Simkins ::

Posted Jan 16, 2011 And the wolf will dwell with the lamb, And the leopard will lie down with the young goat, And the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; And a little boy will lead them. Isaiah 11:6 Some carepages are more difficult to write than others. This is one of […]

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